Playing catch-up with life

Do you ever feel like you`re playing catch-up with life, like people got the memo of life early but you received it late so you`re trying to meet up``

I’ve been living out of my comfort zone for some years now and it’s been interesting. Not only am I trying to figure out my job, but I also get used to the idea of living alone for the first time in a while, in all it can be hard. I can’t complain, I prayed for this life, an opportunity to live outside what I was used to and I’ve gotten it finally.

I prayed for this life because I always felt like a bench warmer, I would watch my peers go through the motions of life with agility and a sense of purpose like they somehow knew the hacks for living while it was a struggle to get things done for me. sometimes I would have to wait and watch my peers move and hit a new milestone while I still figured out what I wanted for breakfast or watching from the sidelines. I wanted so badly to be a player and not a passenger in my life. overlooked, easy to forget, and considered helpless

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Now I’m here - living the life I wanted and it’s still go-go for me, it’s still the hamster wheel of comparison, it’s still that dream that wants to be heard just know I feel like I’m playing catch-up. More times than ever I want to get so many things done, it feels like I’ve been set free and I want to get things done at the same time. It’s a never-ending and working to achieve that dream life with a hint or a massive scoopful of gratitude for everything I’m about to accomplish.

Most times I feel like I’m trying to catch up like there are things I should know but don’t, experiences I should have, I’m trying to have that with that consciousness time isn’t on my side- there’s so much to do but so little time.

Life sometimes has a way of humbling you, of giving you your own stories, and I’m learning it is okay to stumble, to make mistakes that people might wonder what planet you are coming from

I’m learning overall to embrace my life - learning that I can be a work of art and a work in progress at the same time.